Overlord: So, how was the park today? Oh, and the river?

Me: The wha-

I feel as if I can't leave the house without being followed. I try my damnedest to earn their trust, but it's never enough. I could wile away for hours, doing nothing in another place. Yet, just because they aren't there, it is instantly anathema and "ungodly".

It's rare that I have the opportunity to leave the house. Rare that I go anywhere except school.

Side Note: It's been two months since I've been to Wal-mart. No, that's not a bad thing. It's just to exercise the point that I never go anywhere.

To get the feeling that I'm being followed everywhere I go, is not how I want to live my "life". Sure. To have them tail me a few times and have absolutely nothing happen, might not be bad in the long run. It just seems like a low way to show that you don't trust someone.

Complete. Lack. Of. Trust.

If they would just try to talk to me like I was somewhat higher in status than the cat, I would tell them what happens to me during the course of my day. It's just somewhat noticable when they ask "How was your day?" then when I start to explain they just stare at me like I suddenly grew an extra limb.

I'd sure as hell respect them a little more if they treated me a smidgen more like a human than a toy. I'm tired of being cast away when I'm not entertaining any longer.

If they would just ask I'd tell them. It's not like I'm going to lie. Okay, so I have lied. But I wouldn't lie to them. I want their trust. It's too much of a big deal to blow with a lie.