In my last entry, I think I left a few things out. There is something (someone, rather) who makes my life enjoyable. After being away from here for such a long time, I had a little trouble putting down my real thoughts. It's like running into an old friend and probing to see if they really are the same person they were all those years ago.
When everything seems to be going all to hell, he is always there to hold me and reassure me that everything is going to be alright. He and I have been through a lot together and we've always come out whole and a little stronger for the lot of it.
When my grandparents kept us apart, it hurt. It took a lot of pain and a lot of tears to get through that period, but we did it. We found ways to be together. We stayed together in spite of the forces trying to pull us apart.
Over the nearly year and a half we've been together, he's become my only constant support. I know that my family cares about me. I know that my friends care about me, but there are times when that just isn't what I need. He doesn't give me what I want. He gives me what I need, even if that hurts sometimes.
He and I have changed a lot in the time we've been dating. Much in the same way I've changed a lot since I started this journal. We grew up.
I realized that what I wanted for my life isn't exactly what I'm capable of doing. I am capable of so much more then what I had planned for myself. He helped me realize my full potential. He has helped me realize that, with a the right attention and love, I can be a better person. He is mostly the reason I am the person I am today. Without him, I would have ended up exactly the person I had most loathed.
I feel horrible about taking him for granted in my last entry, but I've realized my mistake now and I'm here to correct it.
Lucas, I love you. I hope that one day we can be have all that we want and more.
Tag, lovely. You're it.