I never promised you a book review.
Ok, enough making puns of romance novels. My review will be up shortly, just as soon as I get the urge to write it. Not as if any of you care in the first place.
***
Some interesting things have happend as of late. Most I made an oath to myself to write about. Well, as of now, all oaths are nil.
I feel like writing about someone. This is a rare occurance in my world. It's not usually someone it's usually something. Yet, here is a special occasion. Throw a kegger if you wish.
This someone is well known in my circle of friends. I may have even referred to him a few times here.
This someone: Benus
The older brother of one of my old friends. My relationship with her has faded. Yet he still remains. If anything, I talk to him more now than I ever did before.
He has recently taken up residence in a place I know well. A place that was once my Haven. Somewhere I'd run when I got depressed. Wanting escape.
Nearly everytime I've talked to him before he'd been light-hearted. Playful even. These last few times, a change has come over him. He's turned inward. Musing over the conditions of the human psyche.
As I talk to him, he starts to give me advice. Knowing that he is older and, more than likely, wiser I listen. With every word he says I get more confused. More debased.
He makes me feel like a child again. Looking at the world through tear-stained eyes. Just waiting for someone bigger to chastise me for being insolent.
As much as I dislike the feeling he gives me, I know that it's for the best. We all have to look to someone older/stronger/ more experienced for guidance. He is that person for me.
That is sappy, I know. It's just that he tries to guide me to the light of understanding. Even though I may not be able to see it.
His efforts are shaping me into what I need to be to survive. What I need to be to understand.
For those who know him, and read this, you might know the feeling that I'm attempting futilely to explain. For those of you who don't: you are missing out on one of the most vibrant people in the world to date.
Today's Preferred Torture Method: Wisdom
The Other Voices In My Head: The Dark Tower I: The Gunslinger-Stephen King (a joy to read one by him after such a long time)
Sounds Bite: Something I downloaded off the internet, no idea who it's by. They just listed a ton of popular band names. The single is called Follow. If anyone knows who this is: do not hesitate t e-mail/IM me.